Hally757 2.10

… I have to stop thinking about it I changed the channel and made myself watch a comedy help me forget. When it was over I thought about what I did earlier continuing what happened it was easier this time since the Story of mom was over. I left off at the part where Mom gets the stupid T.V. and puts it back but when she finally finishes she has made another mess has clean it up and make more popcorn.This happens every night; Mom desperately trying to watch her soap operas but can’t get the channel because of the bad antenna that Sammy broke last year and never got fixed. I told Mom it would just be cheaper if she bought a whole new set but she refuses. Instead she tries to fix it with tape and when it breaks she practically forces more on expecting it to work like magic. Another loud crash echoed downstairs this time it was the T.V. itself. That thing has been fixed and re-fixed about 10 times this week. It’s starting to look like a piece of junk but she refuses to buy a new one because dad bought it for her as a Christmas present that was- 14 years ago. Loud beeping noises started which was the alarm on the T.V. but even that is so old it sounds like a cross between a fire alarm, a school bell and an old dog with a screaming baby“Mom!” I yelled plugging my ears trying in vain to drown out the noise, “ Please just fix that thing!!” Under a tangle of wires and cords, Mom quickly glanced up at the clocked realizing what time it was “Holly! It’s 11:30 on a school night....” Mom yelled up to my room Just trying to be a normal mom with all the problems of being single she was just trying to get me to bed on time for a change and be normal even if she can’t afford it she always wants me to have the best and be happy trying to cover up all the mistakes in our lives... Because she feels guilty about herself and dad. And how she totally screwed it up with him.“Holly! Turn off the light NOW!! It’s 11:30 on a school night. Do you know what your father would say?  "If he was actually here!” Rolling my eyes, I thought I should say it but then I thought it rather rude so I didn’t. I yawned. And so Mom continued with her lecture… droning on and on. “Holly! You get up right NOW, go check on Sammy and Emmie and get in the bed young lady!” I knew Mom’s voice wasn’t saying “ Yes dear you can stay up all night and watch T.V. Oh and by the way you don’t have to go to school tomorrow if you don’t want to” so I put down my magazine and went down the hall to Sammy and Emmie’s room.